Current Mood: Wine

Have you ever had a day where it feels like the world is against you? If the answer is no, then you are lying. I know for a fact that everyone has had a day where you wake up in a seemingly good mood, only to be hit square in the face with one frustration after the other until it’s 6 o’clock and you’re drinking straight from the bottle. Well dear readers, today was one of those days. Now I’m not going to fall into a pity party and tell you how awful or aggravating my day was, because really, who wants to read about that? I will tell you though, that today was hard. Nothing tremendous or horrific happened, but it was a day where all the little things slowly added up and built upon one another until it felt like I needed to find a corner to cry in (which I still might). It was a day where I had that overwhelming feeling that life was just not being fair and that I wanted to run — no sprint, as far away as I could. But guess what? I can’t and I won’t.

Carrie gets it

I refuse to allow one bad day to define my overall feeling of this crazy life I’m living, and I have a sweet little boy to look after and love. Parenting isn’t fun to do when you’re feeling down in the dumps, so some of my motivation comes from that boy’s big grin and twinkling eyes. I could have easily thrown in the towel today and hid under the covers, because believe me, I wanted to, but then that means I would have been defeated by circumstances I can’t control, and I’m not about to let that happen.

After taking a moment to myself and indulging in a new plant for my room (geeky, I know) I decided that getting upset over the day’s events just wasn’t an option. I preach positivity to everyone I know, so I might as well take note and try to see the bigger picture in front of me. Shit happens. Life happens. People happen. THINGS HAPPEN. It’s all a part of living and if it’s beyond my control  then I might as well see it as a lesson and move on, even if it’s the hardest thing to do. There are always going to be tough days, you just have to be tougher. I believe that if you keep your chin up long enough and look on the bright side as much as possible, then good things are bound to come your way (even if you feel like yelling and have dropped 500 f-bombs in your head already).

It’s so easy to get caught up in the “woe is me” feeling, but have you ever noticed that as soon as you do, you start acknowledging the negativity around you and almost start looking for it? It’s not a good time and I have been quite guilty of playing into it in the past. Since these last couple months have been a huge learning curve in the life department, I have learned to not fall prey to the negativity monster lurking around, waiting to rear it’s ugly head. Six months ago I would’ve seen this day as one of the worst, but now, I see it as one bad day and look forward to creating a better day tomorrow. No dwelling, no over-thinking, just recognizing it as a less than stellar day and moving on. Simple. I think…

I may not have all the answers, and I still may drink a bottle of wine and shed a few tears tonight, but one thing I know for certain is that all crappy days come to an end and I have so much more to look forward to in the upcoming weeks. So if you’re having a bad day, please be kind to yourself and do whatever you need to do to pick your chin back up and push your shoulders back and give the things bothering you a big middle finger. Give yourself a pep talk if you need to and remind yourself that you are a strong, independent woman (or man) and that you have no time for things that bring you down. Life happens too fast to be worrying about all the things that have gone or will go wrong. Plus, tomorrow is the weekend, and who can be mad about that?